Or at least that's what people tell me. I think they're the perfectly appropriate length for a shower, especially having to wash and condition thick hair, but that's a topic for a different day.
Here's my theory. IF, hypothetically, everyone's right, it is for this single reason: I hate showers. Or at least I think I do. When I know one is coming, I avoid it. The whole process sounds inconvenient and long. I don't look forward to "guessing" whether the water is going to burn me or freeze me out at the first moments. I dread getting wet and I dread drying off. I'm never excited for the opportunity to find an entirely new outfit while I'm freezing. All while spending the whole time next to a toilet. Ugh...they're just not my favorite idea.
However, once I'm in, and the water's just right and no one's bugging me, and I have nowhere to be, I just can't find a single reason to get out. I'd gladly stand there in the perfect warmth forever.
A huge portion of the time, that's exactly how I feel about SEEKing God. When I'm in his presence, I can't get enough. I'm highlighting and sticky-note-ing so fast that I forget to breathe. I want to Facebook what I'm learning but I don't want to stop learning long enough to even click the app. It's purely addicting.
But when I'm done and life's keeping me occupied, the idea of the whole tangible process is unattractive.
Looking on, I have no desire to stop my day, read, and risk feeling guilty for rushing it to get back to my life. Or risk feeling the pressure to have to change any of my behavior afterward based on the conviction I receive from it all. Satan does a mighty good job making SEEKing seem totally undesirable and honestly, exhausting (Reality check-it's a lie. God's the bomb dot com).
But here's how he gets me a lot of the time: No one wants to admit it. Anyone who's been a Christian longer than a day and a half, when asked about their day, seems to always start out with, "After my 3 hour morning prayer, I broke my fast before God and began my evening prayer before beginning work at my secular job where I prayed silently for all of my coworkers to see my light." Now, maybe this is true. Maybe every Christian in the world looks forward to SEEKing God except me. It seems that's the case with showers, so it very well could be true. But sometimes it's been discouraging. I've been a Christian for almost 15 years and given my life to the furthering of the kingdom and it's still just plain old difficult for me to find the motivation. Maybe I'm doing it wrong. But my hope is that by being honest about my struggles to SEEK, FOCUS, and CREATE, maybe I'm help someone like me feel understood and remind them of how fun it was the last time they spend with Jesus. Maybe I can remind them, and myself, that showers are fun. We might not dread them so much anymore. We might just enjoy them like the rest of the world.
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